I just wanted to sleep

I turned away from you

faced the wall

closed my eyes

and tried to be still



I had a dream

that we were making love

using wrenches and spoons



There were like these kitchen items

and levers and knobs

I didn't know what button to push

so I grabbed what was right in front of me

and pushed it as hard as I could



I had a dream

that we were making love

using candles and brooms

It seemed so real

I was almost touching you



Cellophane kisses on plexiglass windows

Caressing the doorknobs, fondling keyholes



It seems so real

I’m almost touching you

Feels so close to the truth



No lights No lights

And then you rise to look outside

You love the sight of broken windows



I’m pushing and pushing -  trying so hard to get in. 

Ramming my way into your brain. 

I wanna penetrate your soul. I wanna crawl inside. 

But all I’ve got is remote controls controlled by electric eyes.



Ringing the bells and turning the knobs, trying so hard to get through.

Keep rummaging through drawers, looking for tools, can't find the key to get in.



Mating the wall - I installed it - now I’m crawling upon it

You look outside you love the sight of broken windows



I had a dream

that we were making love

using toothpicks and glue

video and stills courtesy of Jesse Barron + Elle Michelle